From an optimistic POV you could say I someone who lives in interesting times. I call it Upside-Down Land. Like everyone, I am trapped between a selfish gene and a selfish soul. I suspect this world was created by a gangster-god. It treats this world as a private casino where the house wins every day and most players lose. Hope and faith serve as liquor in this universal casino. The gangster-god enjoys all the upside of this duality platform for consciousness, but suffers little or nothing of the downside. It is a parasite, and you are its host.